And I am a bit of a control freak. Recently, we had a weekend full of plans: dinner with friends, a night out in the city, staying at a hotel, and a seeing a show. Until Saturday when my husband was hit with the flu. It took me all morning Saturday to succumb to the reality that dinner out was not going to happen. A rational person, one who understood her husband was sick, would have canceled first thing in the morning.
You might say I am crazy when I tell you the same thing happened the next day. Only this time, I did not cancel the hotel until we were actually due to check in. I think I procrastinated partially because it was not just the hotel that was being canceled, it was the dinner and the show. I had been looking forward to it for a few weeks and by cancelling, I was admitting that it was not happening at all.
(Please don’t judge, I gave my husband all the love and care he needed all weekend long; homemade soup, tons of water, rubbed his achy body…)
And here is what I know for sure: I have a hard time when the energy shifts from what I was planning to do in a completely different direction. It throws me off balance. I get this overwhelming feeling that something else is going to drop and it makes me a bit down. (This is a bit irrational I am sure!)
The good news is I know this flaw about myself. I can walk myself through the childish thoughts as they are happening, and even if it takes a few hours to pull myself up, I will take action.
I am sure you have a flaw or hang-up that can cause setbacks in being your best you too. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Recognize it, call it out, give yourself some grace, and take the right action.
